Unexpected problems

This has been weighing heavy on my mind lately. I've talked before (on my old blog) about getting my tubes tied last March. I did that and I'm still fine with that. However, one of the hopes was that once I went off of the pill my blood pressure would improve. That has not happened. I'm sure it is due to a combination of things like genes, weight, and stress. So I'm still on blood pressure meds. But I've had a few weird health things going on lately too. I also think I'm losing my hair. Not all of it, but I KNOW it is thinner. I read online that it could be caused by changes in hormones....like maybe when I went off the pill?

I went in to the Dr. recently (my GYN) because my cycle started being strange too...too heavy and too often mostly. Plus for the past 2+ years my paps all come back abnormal. I get them every 6 months because of it, but they don't know why.

So all that freaks me out a bit. Then I went in. They gave me an ultra sound. This is all the crap they noticed:

• One of my ovaries has migrated down below my uterus. Why? Who knows.
• I have a small cyst on the sunken ovary. 
• I have a large cyst on my other ovary and inside of that cyst is another cyst. He wondered why I wasn't in any pain.
• At first he thought that my uterus was measuring triple the normal size, but then he realized what he was seeing was probably a polyp in my uterus. A nice big one.

What the doc said was - he's not worried about my cysts unless they start to hurt. I wonder if that's normal? My ovary that migrated is okay too. The polyp or whatever it is seems to be the thing that has him wanting to investigate further. I go in for a procedure tomorrow where they take a light and camera up there and see exactly what they're dealing with. A polyp would explain the extra and frequent bleeding I'm experiencing, so I hope that is what it is. If it isn't then it could be something much more sinister...like a thickening of my uterus wall or something...I just heard the part that said.."and could be precancerous...." so they need to go in there and see. The "going in and seeing" part is easy - they go up through your cervix. I've had it done once before a long time ago when I first went to him to see what was up with my stuff.

I thought while I was at it, I might as well have this test done that measures muscle strength for the muscles in charge of my bladder as well since I have issues there too - like when I laugh, cough, sneeze, etc. I have had problems with that since giving birth the first time. It's not always possible to stop and cross your legs when you have to do any of the things mentioned. If it is not muscle tone that is the problem, they will most likely give me a sling...for my bladder. Now, that sounds like fun.

Anyway, I guess I always worry about the worst possible scenario - in this case cancer. Those cells that are abnormal in my paps combined with the thing in my uterus...geez, just take all the shit out will ya? I'm all my three kids have and I need to be here.